At least in my head
I just left my job.
Whilst walking out, I realised that for the first time in my life, I have nothing planned next. Usually, I am the type to plan months in advance, scoping out my next opportunity so that I always have something to do or work on.
However, I think for this first time, it might be good for me to just jump into the unknown and embrace not having a plan.
For a little while, I have been feeling that despite my best efforts at planning, life seems to be slowly escaping my control. It’s a scary feeling to have, and I definitely think it has affected my health, both physically and mentally.
I’ve always wanted to build something, and it’s the main reason that I took my most recent job at a startup. Whilst I have learned loads, the feeling of losing control over my future has been present in my mind quite a lot, to the point where recently it has been feeling like the world is ending for me.
So, despite a lot of friends and some of my family telling me to stick it out and keep going, I think it is best I embrace the unknown and let the future take me where it needs to go. I’m not sure if this is the best choice, but it is definitely giving me something else to occupy my thoughts for the time being.